Monday, June 14, 2010

BERRIES ON THE DECK



The essence of summer up north is berries on the deck. Way out on the end of the Old Mission Peninsula my sunset deck at The Gathering faces the waters of the Grand Traverse West Bay and the opening to Lake Michigan. Looking straight north I can see the lit marker which stands sentinel, guiding boats through the very rocky and very shallow waters surrounding the tip of our peninsula and the historic Old Mission Lighthouse. It is to this deck I bring my berries each summer morning. With just a little cream to blend and soften their sharp sweetness the berries give to me joy, appreciation, and meditation in the landscape that surrounds my being and permeates my soul. Wendell Berry said, "Better than any argument is to rise at dawn and pick dew-wet red berries in a cup."

I begin as James Whitcomb Riley describes, “Long about knee-deep in June, ‘bout the time strawberries melts on the vine.” Back a few years when late June celebrated the end of the school year for me as a teacher and my children as students, our first strawberry shortcake announced that summer was officially here. Now strawberries greet us as the first fruit of the season at the Kalkaska Cherry Street Market (pictured above) as we journey M-72 from downstate. They travel with us in anticipation of another joyous summer up north. The first sun drenched morning I carry my bowl of strawberries to the deck I salute the marker; I salute the lighthouse, I salute the blue waves. I cheer mightily, “I’m back!”

The jewels of the summer are the raspberries. A few summers ago my daughter, Beth, and I decided to take her daughters raspberry picking downstate. She remembered fondly picking raspberries in northern Oakland County. No raspberries that day!  Her favorite raspberry field was now a subdivision.  The following year I found a raspberry field for my granddaughter on Old Mission. The woman who owned the farm on Center Road kindly explained to Claire how to pick only the ripest, reddest berry, pulling it gently from its white core. Claire’s older sister, Claudia, missed the experience. She was at camp. No matter, Claire gave her explicit instructions on the art of raspberry picking when she returned. I will covet the memory of eating “our own picked raspberries” with Claire the next morning as a dazzling highpoint of the summer.

From deep appreciation, my mood turns meditative in August. It is time for the blueberries, as Robert Frost describes them, “Blueberries as big as the end of your thumb,/Real sky-blue, and heavy, and ready to drum/In the cavernous pail of the first one to come!” Perhaps it’s the intense blue-black contrasting so sharply with the smooth creamy liquid, but blueberries poke at my inner thoughts demanding I give words and voice to them. A sick friend, separated family members, lives in turmoil; it is in August I often must sort out my feelings and determine actions. Perhaps it’s remembering how the locusts of August always call me back to summer’s end and winter’s reality. The locusts are easier to hear when I am popping round blue balls into my mouth surveying the swans on the bay. Blueberries take the edge off my sadness and guide me smoothly toward resolution.

Caught as a miniature up north moment, berries on my deck magnify it. The scene secures the essence of the experience: safely capturing the joy, the appreciation, and the meditation until next summer.

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

THEN AND NOW

As a mother immersed
in my daughter’s life:

I missed the joy
of budding maturation
glorious abandonment
happy times with forever friends.
Too busy making sure she
studied
dressed appropriately
reported in before curfew.

All those motherly duties
now gloriously abandoned.
Discovering through
observation instead of obligation:
momentous moments
sweet events,
delightful days.
Of my granddaughters.

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

IN THEIR PRESENCE AGAIN


Loss of a love is excruciating. Best friends are not supposed to desert you: leaving you to turn calendar pages, take morning walks, watch beloved sports teams, and feed the cat without them. Sometimes we discover occasions to prolong their presence. Designing and sewing Hospice Quilts offered such an opportunity.


It began with too much floral fabric! And really I could blame my best friend, Chris Kevern, for contributing to my excess piles of hiding hibiscus, huge hydrangeas and hanging heliconia. Chris purged her fabric stash when she was very ill with cancer. Even though she loved the dancing dandelions and tiptoeing tulips, she knew she would not sew again.

Chris’ last days with her best friends and family were spent at Genesys Hospice in Goodrich, Michigan.genesys.org Caring loving workers held our hands and they wrapped our Chris in loving comfort and homemade quilts. I remembered the quilts as I fingered the floral fabrics. Perhaps I could honor Chris’ memory with a quilt sewn all with floral fabrics? Genesys Hospice said, “Of course.”

As I sewed for Chris and Hospice, I listened to my dear son-in-law describe the wonderful home care his mother, Marty Greening, received from Heartland Hospice in West Branch, Michigan.hcr-manorcare.com I remembered my friend since grade school, Betty Sue, describe the comfort Angela Hospice, Livonia, Michigan, provided her husband, Al. Shortly after Al’s death Betty Sue would also succumb to cancer. angelahospice.org

And of course I remembered my own Hospice story. We had Cranbrook Hospice, Bloomfield Hills, Michigan, for a week: the horrendous nightmare of a week before David Galley, my first love, my high school sweetheart, the father of my children, my beloved through old age (I thought) died. During that horrific week, I asked the Hospice worker only one question, “How will it happen?” With quiet words and dignified details, she talked to me; never minimizing my fear, shock, and terror.

One quilt grew into four.  All were floral in design, except David’s which burst in a rainbow of color. The fabric selections were from my own stash, enhanced by Chris’ additions. As I cut, pinned, and sewed, I remembered memory tidbits of each person: Chris identifying flowers for me, Marty laughing and hugging at our children’s wedding, Al and Betty chomping M & Ms as we played another game of Hearts and dear David sacrificing romance to honor my request, a sewing machine for a wedding present. Sewing the quilts prolonged their presence, brought them back into focus to chat a while. I honor Hospice with gifts of quilts, but I honor my beloved friends by remembering their stories and their lives all over again.

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